cigarettes from 20 to 0 Lately I got into the habit of smoking a lot in the evening, and almost a pack a day was not enough anymore, I always loved to smoke, especially at moments of reflection.
few weeks ago, a Saturday night, I was sitting on the rocks in Santa Margherita Ligure in solitude, I smoked and watched the lights of the boats swaying in the trees, and my thoughts spun free from a tug and another.
Then one night I had a very sore throat that does not pass, a sore throat strange, just when I was finished package.
Since then I have not touched a cigarette, and I had no withdrawal symptoms, you spent about a month.
When the friends around me smoke, we suffer a bit, I miss it, but I decided to become a healthy fruit, vegetables, gym and sweat: D, and I must say that we get on well with this lifestyle. I have passed many
even paranoia.
Quitting smoking is easy, you would never forgive you if one day you ammalaste, and you understood that was your fault? I do not.
So I said ENOUGH!
What am I doing? 's a strange time, I'm pretty laid back anyway, so I can not say to stay evil, even if feeling good is something else. Step these summer days to work up a bit 'interesting people and look on Netlog. I met some people from my town who have managed to give me a few laughs virtual, and I hope to meet soon in real life. strange things continue to happen, but not write on the blog, are no longer a writer, avid as ever. In recent days, I chatted with Stephen the very guy who says he received a miracle, and listen to his views on God, religion and people. still tend to seek more and more happy people who suffer from una qualche forma di disagio, piuttosto che persone che stanno bene, perchè mi ci trovo meglio a parlare. Ora me ne andrò a letto, anche se con sto caldo non ne ho proprio voglia. Buona notte a tutti.
period of calm on the surface .... Dopo essere tornato dall'isola d'elba le cose sembrano andare meglio, il lavoro va bene, gli amici pure....non è proprio così veramente...ma mi voglio illudere che lo sia, ho deciso di dare una tregua ai pensieri distruttivi. L'odio che albergava in me è scemato, per lasciare solamente profonda tristezza, ma non sono depresso, anzi nonostante tutto ho ancora tanta voglia di fare. Il post precedente was a bit strong, but not delete it, it was a moment of anger, but he was part of my life and do not want to forget.
only hypocrisy. Intelligence Fuck. fucking hypocrisy may have affected humanity so endemic? everywhere, hypocrisy, people in less expected. And I do not know what to do, I do not want to be part of this humanity of shit, might as well be dead. jot down new drops and pills, bitter, disgusting, it's like drinking a concentrated coffee without sugar, but I can not sleep. fucking rosary that you stuffed it in the ass, but that gliene fotte a dio, sempre che ci sia, che gli ripeti 50 volte la stessa cosa, tipo automa, e poi ti comporti di merda ? Questo dolore alla spalla non passa mai, sabato parto e mi levo dai coglioni, mi lascio alle spalle tutto, voglio dimenticare tutto, son stufo di alzarmi al mattino col solito bagaglio sulle spalle, che sembra sempre più pesante. Cosa sono diventato ? Pure il sesso mi fa schifo ora. Tutto mi fa schifo, cazzo mi vorrei pagare un sicario per farmi fuori, che da soli è dura trovare il coraggio. Tra poco le palpebre si chiuderanno, e al mio risveglio mi calerò una altra dose di merda in goccie, perchè alone is difficult to do it. But Think of it positive, not just one day people like me will create a revolution, and burn all those who represent the brand in the world, purify the race, there will be no more evil men and hypocrites, come, join brothers, Judgement Day is coming! ahuhaahuhauahu
